Poetry
The Alchemist
Your venomlingers in my veins
and for nowit still hurts, only for now.
But soon itwill turn to gold
Kintsugicutting through my brilliantskin
glowing,
immune.
All my gildededges
reflecting inthe soft evening light.
theglistening gloss on my lips
the sway of myhips,
shiftingunder my satin dress.
I do confess,
I’mhappy.
You’re nomatch for my alchemy.
Turning thepain you gave me into
somethingclean,
somethingmine.
A millionmiles away from you
It feels sogood
not caringwhat you do.
After suchlong nights wide eyed and worried
wondering,
when you’ddecide to come home to me.
I’m finallyfree.
At some pointyou seemed to make up your mind about
who youthought I was;
Smart enoughto laugh at your
dumb jokes,
interestingenough to summarize to your friends,
with somequaint little hobbies floating around
in thebackground
of yourdistance.
Cute, butnever gorgeous.
Quiet, yetstill crude enough to bother you.
And thefleeting few
times youtried to ‘charm’ me
only exposedhow little you knew.
And then… youstopped trying.
Yourcuriosity dying
with the lastof my patience.
I am morethan you could ever know.
More than youcould jot down in your
mental notesapp,
more thanyour flaccid mind
could tap.
And even as Ispeak
I finallybegin to peek
under theveil you cast upon me.
I am alanguage you can’t read,
I am anartifact buried deep,
A RosettaStone
of flesh andbone,
you
could never touchme.
I weave mywisdom into words,
my swan songinto songbirds,
my millionpaper cuts
a scarletthread,
spun into a dazzlingcoat
of courage,and of hope.
I will wearit everywhere.
All my gildededges
reflectingeven the lowest light,
the shimmerof my soul
theglistening glass on my eyes
my thighs,
shiftingunder my satin dress.
I mustconfess, I’m happy.
2024
Ginkgoes
You close your eyes like ginkgo leaves
Smile at the sky
Cry at the trees.
And every time you think of me
I’m in the changing of the breeze.
Let the spring inside
The quiet of your mind
Step into the rapture
Slip out of time
Skin, a silken membrane
All the dew that it contains
Back to the ground with your remains.
2022
Marrow
As the letters unfold
and the dust, and the cold
and old, old bakers wife
with cataracts on her teeth
makes sausages with meat that the dogs won't eat.
In the house with the grown man crying in the bathroom
and the lame horse that nobody wants to shoot
and the shame, and the games
that the children play,
as they run over the poppies they didn't know were planted
with the seeds of soldiers marrow.
2018
Sangria
March your bitten fingers
along my décolletage.
February feels
colder this year.
Very nearly almost
dead.
A kiss, a shot,
to the back of my neck.
Warm me up.
Breathe your smoke into
the hollows of my throat.
Skin so thin,
those scapulae like dorsal fins,
nearly breaking the surface of your flesh.
Indigo veins, invertebrate ink,
a bruise, a plume,
of black dye in water
clear as Venetian glass.
I want to touch that skin, that
living latex.
How can something so slim restrain all that–?
Water. Blood.
The pressure of its plasma
pulsing, palpitating
for escape.
Unspool the thread,
let it seep out slowly.
Bead it with scarlet gems, rubies
are Nature’s currency.
A slice, a taste,
a vent to ease the burden.
You are opaque.
The crimson current
drained from your cadaver,
now rests upon my tongue,
my hands,
my Crest white teeth.
2017